A song that lives deep in my soul

This song always seemed to describe situations I found myself in….. I used to listen to it on repeat ad nauseum (my parents and siblings wanted to destroy my CD and probably had a Jewel voodoo doll or something).  Today, I’m feelin it again………..  here it is   Related posts: Deep Thoughts by the Hot Mess Lost My Soul What Can Cure the Blackest Soul? Empty Soul Concentrate, Concentrate, Concen…Huh?!

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My Saving Grace

My days were dark, my heart so sad Pain filled my days, wishing to not feel bad Then you came and changed it all Caught the pieces of my broken heart as they began to fall You picked them up and put them back in the right place My heart fills with happiness, you are my saving grace When I’m with you, my heart beats fast I keep hoping this feeling will last When you… Continue Reading

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What happens if……

So, here I am, things are starting to go well in my life.  (I know, I knocked on wood, several times).  The worst is behind me, or so I hope, and I’m moving on.  I’m elated at the thought of that, who wouldn’t be after the last few, ok last like 10 years, have unfolded. But then I suddenly began to panic. Why? Well what in the hell could I possibly blog about if unbelievably… Continue Reading

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The morning sun Sparkles off the snow so white Teardrops form The icicles of the night A young girl sits alone and afraid Replaying in her mind All the games that were played He walked in And brushed away a tear Kissed her cheek and said please don’t fear. Looking at This stranger and his eyes She saw that he Was an angel in disguise   Related posts: Angel In Disguise Alone Untitled Another poem… Continue Reading

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Musings at the bus stop

Sitting on the bench at the bus stop, cold and alone, watching everyone in their cars racing, my hair whipping in their wind, reminds me of my life now. Everyone’s life keeps on moving and I’m stuck right there, waiting for that one to stop and lend a hand. I try to yell for help, but the windows are up, radios on, and they are focused on where they need to be. Someone stopped, but… Continue Reading

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Quite a Show…….

THis is a story that took place in a far away land.  I had a flashback……. (i hate flashbacks) that was so vivid I still felt the pain today….. ick!!!!! Many years ago, there was a boy. Yes. A boy. Thats how long ago this was. There was a crush (I’m not saying by who) but nothing ever came of it. A few years later, the truth is revealed. That seemed to be a common… Continue Reading

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Concentrate, Concentrate, Concen…Huh?!

I can’t concentrate or focus anymore. At all. I have about 8,000 projects that have to be done, and nothing ever gets completed because I can’t focus on it long enough to finish it. Its especially apparent at work!!!! I can’t read more than 10 pages of a transcript before I want to shoot myself in the head. Is it anxiety? I’m on meds for that. Is it ADD or ADHD? On meds for that… Continue Reading

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Where is Hell???

Hell is right here. Right here in my office, in my house, its whereever I go. I can’t escape it. Hell is not a pit of fire with the Devil waiting at the door. Hell is feeling like you are sinking into quicksand and can’t breathe. Every life line that you were holding onto is slowly breaking and you are sinking farther and farther. And then, you just explode. And you can’t control it. Even… Continue Reading

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Spinning

Spinning and Spinning in circles I go Wondering when I will know When will it end? Why does it start? The aching and breaking of my lonely heart. Tears streaming from my hazel eyes Pondering all the terrible lies. Permanent solitude frightening the soul Plummetting deeper into the hole. Grasping with all my might Darkeness surrounds me day and night. I pick myself up and fall again. Will this spinning ever end?   Related posts:… Continue Reading

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New Beginning

Now it’s time to start life anew, To begin a life without you. With you I was so strong, Yet our love was so very wrong. My foundation to lift me high, My fortress to hide me from their eyes. Holding on with all your might, Trying to break free, a constant fight. For once I break free, I am alone Scared because your all I’ve known. The solitude and lonely nights, So difficult, yet… Continue Reading

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