Bringing in the New Year Hot Mess style!

Every year at this time, December 31, we have the tradition of making New Years Resolutions.  You know, things we want to do in this new year to better ourselves, like working out more.  So for the first few weeks of January, the gyms are all packed to the max, then as February rolls in, the crowd starts dwindling, and by March, its the same crowd that was there prior to January 1.  We seem… Continue Reading

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I’m NOT all glitter and unicorns you know.

Sometimes, you realize that everything turned out to be nothing you ever could imagine it would and get so low you can’t get out anymore. That everyone else is going on and living life the way you want and should be, but you aren’t because the physical pain and emotional pain has you frozen and you can’t move. Have you reached out? yes. Have you tried the best you can and as much as you… Continue Reading

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From Witty………to Shitty…….

another unpublished post I dug up from the archives (this cleaning stuff has really benefited in more ways than one): Yes folks. I have gone from coming up with endless amounts of witty comments and diatribes, to thinking nothing but shitty things. What could cause such a drastic turn in one’s brain you ask?! Well, the other part of being bipolar is a depressive state. I’m not just a roller coaster of manic and then… Continue Reading

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Trying To Be Everything

I’m tired. Tired of what you ask. Tired of trying to be everything to everyone. Tired of trying to do everything for everyone and tired of acting like I can do everything for everyone. I’m tired of everyone expecting me to do everything for them and getting upset and making snide comments about me when I can’t do everything. PEOPLE. There are only 24 hours in a single day. I have BIPOLAR for gods sake,… Continue Reading

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Dear Friends, I suck.

Dear Friends, Yes.  I admit that I have become a shithead lately.  I have crawled into a cave and found myself a nice cozy blanket in there.  No, it’s not warm in there.  No, it’s not fun.  No, I don’t want to be there, but it has become my self preservation and coping mechanism.  If I just stay in the hole, this too shall pass right?  Well, it’s kinda lonely in there, and I’m letting… Continue Reading

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Graduating From Therapy! *from the archives*

From the Hot Mess Archives! Yippie! I am FINALLY graduating on March 20! I am so glad and feel such a sense of accomplishment. However, I am still sad. My parents, bro and sis are going to be there, which is awesome, but there is one person that I want to be there, that isn’t. They have to work. Its disappointing because I want that person to share the excitement of how far I have… Continue Reading

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As The Bipolar Hot Mess Preps to Become Another Year Older…..

This was written several birthdays ago, but as my birthday approaches, I thought it would be interesting to see how I have handled my birthday in the past, so, here we go!   When my birthday approaches, one of the traditions that I have is waking up, looking in the mirror,  and taking note of all the signs of aging on my physical appearance. Superficial, yes but I can’t help it.  For so long I… Continue Reading

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25 Times You Shouldn’t Apologize

WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!  Are you kidding me??!!!!!!  We are not encouraging the rudeness of the already rude society we currently reside in!!!  I saw a woman on the bus reading that article and I nearly fell off my seat due to pure shock, disbelief and horror.  I think what we DO need is an article called 25 Times YOU SHOULD Apologize. Lets start with an easy one.  #1- when you bump into someone, knock someone over, step… Continue Reading

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Whoa! Take A Step Back Hot Mess!!!!!!

I guess when you can’t focus or concentrate on something, it’s an indication that something else is on your mind. This weekend, I had a lot of reality checks (these past few months have been a lot of that!!!! But, better now than never!) Sometimes we all need a good swift kick in the ass or a good reality check. However, when doing a reality check, instead of beating yourself up over every mistake you have… Continue Reading

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I thought I could fly……..

Yes, the Bipolar Hot Mess doesn’t know EVERYTHING.  I do fall myself.  Lately, it seems that I am an expert at falling, or failing. I think that I am doing fine and I keep pushing and adding on more until the ultimate crash and burn.  Why don’t I ever know my limit and stick to it???  So, the advice I have been given is to focus on the things that are most important to me… Continue Reading

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