Is one type of pain better than another?

Is physical pain better or worse than emotional pain? More like, is CHRONIC physical pain worse than emotional pain? The answer?  Neither is better or worse than the other.  Emotional pain, while it begins mentally, it can absolutely cause physical pain too.  Chronic pain? It starts in episodes, then it just kinda settles in, unpacks it’s bags and puts it’s feet up as you learn to deal with more and more pain.  Emotional pain, does… Continue Reading

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My Friend ED.. aka eating disorder

Friend.  HA!  Isn’t that a joke. ED wants you to think he’s your friend, but does a friend slowly suck the life out of you and consume your ever waking (and even sleeping) moment with obsession and self loathing?  Hmmm. Actually… Just Kidding.  I wouldn’t call that a friend!  And yet, no matter how hard you try to get rid of him, he is always there, just lingering in the back of your mind, just… Continue Reading

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The end and yet the beginning

Today I have found myself with some really mixed emotions.  I’m extremely emotional because tomorrow is the last surgical procedure that will be done on my back after a series of procedures the last year.  I had this procedure done on my left side and after the couple weeks of incredible pain during the recovery period, I woke up one day and after almost 3 years of chronic pain, my left side of my back… Continue Reading

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“It Will Get Better!” LIARS!!!!!

People try to encourage you and tell you that things will get better. “Once the divorce is finalized, it will get better,” “Once you get over him, it will get better,”  “Once you get approved for disability, things will get better,” they said. REALLY? Because my divorce is finalized, I got over HIM, and I got approved for disability and things just seem to continue to keep crashing downhill.  You think you hit rock bottom,… Continue Reading

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Acceptance

One of the key components to recovery is acceptance. Coming to terms with what it is. Bipolar disorder. I’ve accepted that I have it. I have accepted that I will have it the rest of my life. I’ve accepted the symptoms. The highs, the lows, the meds, the docs, hospitals, cognitive and behavioral therapies; I’ve accepted it all. For the rest of my life I will have to adapt my lifestyle to trying to keep… Continue Reading

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Bringing in the New Year Hot Mess style!

Every year at this time, December 31, we have the tradition of making New Years Resolutions.  You know, things we want to do in this new year to better ourselves, like working out more.  So for the first few weeks of January, the gyms are all packed to the max, then as February rolls in, the crowd starts dwindling, and by March, its the same crowd that was there prior to January 1.  We seem… Continue Reading

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I’m NOT all glitter and unicorns you know.

Sometimes, you realize that everything turned out to be nothing you ever could imagine it would and get so low you can’t get out anymore. That everyone else is going on and living life the way you want and should be, but you aren’t because the physical pain and emotional pain has you frozen and you can’t move. Have you reached out? yes. Have you tried the best you can and as much as you… Continue Reading

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Trying To Be Everything

I’m tired. Tired of what you ask. Tired of trying to be everything to everyone. Tired of trying to do everything for everyone and tired of acting like I can do everything for everyone. I’m tired of everyone expecting me to do everything for them and getting upset and making snide comments about me when I can’t do everything. PEOPLE. There are only 24 hours in a single day. I have BIPOLAR for gods sake,… Continue Reading

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A Letter of Self-Love

I  found this on Psych Central in a column called Weightless.  I read this and it actually gave me the idea that I should be doing this too.  I much too often let the bad take over and then forget how much good there really is.  I think a lot of my moods going up and down could also be served positively by this as well.   The more we tell ourselves the good things about… Continue Reading

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Emotions cause our body pain?

Yes.  They actually do.  I just found this AMAZING chart that shows where our body feels the pain of the different emotions.  Think of the last time you were so angry either at someone or about something.  Did you stomach hurt?  When you have a lot on your mind or have so much going on, almost like the “weight of the world on your shoulders,” do your shoulders hurt?  When you are afraid of something,… Continue Reading

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