Fake A** Peeps … Letting Go of “Dead Weight” .. another step toward moving on

I think we all encounter a few types of people in our lives that fit into some specific categories that if not handled the right way, can really affect our lives in a negative way. However, what type of person WE are and how we handle each type of person, makes a huge difference. It can make or break a situation. Take me for example. I’m the person who has to “fix” everybody and make… Continue Reading

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Am I Here or There? Or Anywhere?

Wow! I’m writing! Yes, I’ve shocked myself too. It’s been awhile since I have been able to write, well, write consistently that is.  Don’t be fooled though. This isn’t a guarantee that I’m on a writing streak.  But, as they say, something is better than nothing. So here I am. But where is “here” exactly? I mean, I’m still on disability. Since that day that I walked into my office manager’s office, note in hand… Continue Reading

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“It Will Get Better!” LIARS!!!!!

People try to encourage you and tell you that things will get better. “Once the divorce is finalized, it will get better,” “Once you get over him, it will get better,”  “Once you get approved for disability, things will get better,” they said. REALLY? Because my divorce is finalized, I got over HIM, and I got approved for disability and things just seem to continue to keep crashing downhill.  You think you hit rock bottom,… Continue Reading

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The Anger, the pain, why is this happening all over again?

Because you are a stupid girl. You never learn. You were hurt. It hurt so bad that you never thought you would recover.  But you did.  You not only recovered, but you fell in love again. Stupid you. Giving your heart up so fast. Stupid you.  Thinking someone understood you.  Stupid you. Believing when they said they would not give up on you.  Fool. Yes. You.  You are the fool.  You believed it. They were… Continue Reading

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Hot Mess Birthday Post If you don’t think you make a difference, just wait!

About 7 years ago, I was released from the psych ward and sent to a full time, partial hospitalization program to continue my therapy in learning how to handle and manage with my new diagnosis of bipolar disorder.  Four months later, I began law school in the evenings and continued to go to the therapy group, but I was now down to just attending mornings.  A few weeks later, I was progressing rapidly and my… Continue Reading

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They said it would be better

Yes. They all said that after my divorce was final, I would feel better.  But I don’t.  I feel just the same; if not worse.  They said I would feel a huge weight lifted off me.  But I don’t.  Instead I feel an ever greater weight on me…..an enormous attorney bill contributing to it all.  They said it would be a brand new, fresh start, but it isn’t.  Its the same thing it was the… Continue Reading

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Work Bathroom Etiquette

womens work bathroom etiquette

Ok. So as I sat down in the stall, I looked at the door and there was a sign that read,  “Out of consideration for your co-workers, please wipe the seat and flush the toilet before leaving”. SERIOUSLY???   SERIOUSLY!!!!!!! Who needs a sign to be put there to inform us of what I would think is common sense?  I mean, really, isn’t it common sense to flush the toilet?  Isn’t it automatic and a… Continue Reading

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To Boo and Ryan With Love From The Bipolar Hot Mess

Well, I’ve mentioned briefly how the Pocket Christi concept started.  You know, my friends would call me when they needed advice or help and then said they wished they “had a ‘Christi’ I could put in my pocket.  A Pocket Christi.”  Well, the first person to say that was Boo!  She was the creator of the Pocket Christi concept that quickly spread through my group of friends like wildfire, which then turned into The Bipolar Hot Mess.… Continue Reading

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Changing the inner can change the outter????

Human beings, by changing the inner attitudes of their minds, can change the outer aspects of their lives. -William James Ok. So if this is so, then if I think the public transportation is the best thing invented and that the people on there really do not smell and I just have a nose problem and do not have a problem attracting those with a terrible stench to sit next to me, will I suddenly… Continue Reading

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Cause I Walk With A Limp, Like An Old Skool Pimp……

Yes folks.  I am going to be doing a walk!!!!  The last one I did for breast cancer was a few years ago and now, well, I think its time to do one for another cause that hits even closer to home because it affects me!!!!  We all know that I am not a runner, or a walker, or do much physical activity that breaks a sweat.  I’m more of a yoga/pilates girl, but when… Continue Reading

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