Yup. Defective ………..

I was born defective, only nobody knew it then.  It wouldn’t become evident until later, when I was in high school.  My mind, my heart, and soul were always in this very sad, dark place.  Nothing could cheer me up.  I couldn’t keep friends (and honestly, I don’t even blame them looking back.  Who wants to be with someone that is constantly a downer?), I believed I was fat and ugly, had many crushes but… Continue Reading

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Is THIS all there is????

If THIS is all there is to life, then I would like to see a copy of the contract or would like the receipt so I can get an exchange.  Am I going to be waking up at the crack of dawn to get some work in BEFORE work, then working 8 hours (to be able to bill the client for 7) only to go home and work another 4 hours on either work stuff,… Continue Reading

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Changing the inner can change the outter????

Human beings, by changing the inner attitudes of their minds, can change the outer aspects of their lives. -William James Ok. So if this is so, then if I think the public transportation is the best thing invented and that the people on there really do not smell and I just have a nose problem and do not have a problem attracting those with a terrible stench to sit next to me, will I suddenly… Continue Reading

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The Best Text Messaging I’ve Had Recently…….

was today.  I am trying to edit a video for one of the websites I write for.  Since I have NO IDEA (I know, imagine that, Bipolar Hot Mess doesn’t know how to do something), I naturally ask someone younger than me figuring they have more experience.  This is how the conversation went (and I don’t think I need to delve further into why I love this convo so much) Hot Mess.: I am trying… Continue Reading

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Cause I Walk With A Limp, Like An Old Skool Pimp……

Yes folks.  I am going to be doing a walk!!!!  The last one I did for breast cancer was a few years ago and now, well, I think its time to do one for another cause that hits even closer to home because it affects me!!!!  We all know that I am not a runner, or a walker, or do much physical activity that breaks a sweat.  I’m more of a yoga/pilates girl, but when… Continue Reading

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Throw Some Glitter, Make it Rain……Movin’ Up!

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!  Yesterday, the official announcement was made that I am partner in the website Ask A Bipolar!!!!!!!!!!!!!   Totally unexpected that the announcement was made and I was absolutely not even prepared for it!  It was super exciting though and its such a great honor to be part of that website.   The people who have benefitted from it (including me) have really made all of the hard word totally and completely worthwhile!!!! I have to admit,… Continue Reading

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Even The Hot Mess Doesn’t Have All the Answers

Yes folks. Its true.  I really don’t have all the answers.  If I did, I probably would know why people think that insulting and hurting other people because you feel poorly about yourself is acceptable.  Especially when its the ones you love.  If I had all the answers I would know why people who are completely selfish walk around saying that everybody else is the selfish one.  I would also know why it hurts so… Continue Reading

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BOOK REVIEW: Fall Girl by Marybeth Smith

Fall Girl is a fantastic fictional piece written for teens that includes an accurate depiction of a high school girl and her teenage angst while her her bipolar brother reeks havoc on her life. Not only was this wonderfully written, but the book was not an account of a bipolar teen and their life, but instead, how siblings of a bipolar teen can be affected.  Though fictional, Blake’s character holds true to a teen with… Continue Reading

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Father’s Day…..A tribute to my dad…..

My dad.  So many things I can say about my dad.  He’s always been there and always fought for me.  He’s made me laugh, and of course, he’s made me cry (when i was a little girl and he would say no!)  Today, he called me up.  I said “hello” and he launched into this long winded story. When he finally stopped I said “Happy Father’s Day by the way.”  His response: ” Yea.  so i… Continue Reading

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The Forest

Walking in the forest Leaves are crunching under my feet Thye sun shines brightly I’m engulfed in the heat I keep on walking And see a rabbit I turn and run It’s just a habit I’m running so fast The trees just a blur What was I running from I’m really not sure Suddenly the sky turned gray I continued to run far, far away. The raindrops fell The dirt turned to mud Tripping on… Continue Reading

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