All, Bipolar Disorder, Featured, Random Musings

Why I Hate Hollywood……yet can’t stay away *sigh*

They are liars.  Yes folks.  They lie there.  They make these movies and make these characters that are just too perfect.  Then, we watch these movies and when our life doesn’t compare to the perfection in their movies, we are miserable.  Hollywood makes us miserable because we are trying to attain the illusions they put in front of us.  Thats …

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All, Bipolar Disorder, Bipolar Hot Mess Daily Life, Healthy Life & Relationships

Kick ’em when they are down, the only way to survive?

Last night, I experienced a major, MAJOR blow. While I was experiencing a very emotional time in my life and was already hurting and upset about events previously that night , I reached out to someone that “claimed” they cared about me.   I explained my situation, but the response I got, was so far beyond belief of what I …

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All, Bipolar Disorder, Bipolar Hot Mess Daily Life, Emotional Change, Healthy Changes, Healthy Life & Relationships

When I’m Sorry Is No Longer Enough

Sometimes in relationships, the words “I’m Sorry” begin to lose their meaning and in some cases, even mean nothing when we keep using them so flippantly as a quick band-aid but yet don’t end up changing those actions or behaviors. In many situations, you can be saying I’m sorry, but you know that those words don’t mean anything to the …

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All, Bipolar Disorder, Random Musings, Relationship (friendships), Relationships (Love)

Yup. Defective ………..

I was born defective, only nobody knew it then.  It wouldn’t become evident until later, when I was in high school.  My mind, my heart, and soul were always in this very sad, dark place.  Nothing could cheer me up.  I couldn’t keep friends (and honestly, I don’t even blame them looking back.  Who wants to be with someone that …

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All, Bipolar Hot Mess Daily Life, Bipolar Hot Mess Diary, Relationships (Love)

The End of Us

Who knew that after being one of the very few people standing in your court, backing you up when everyone else is running away from you like you are the one in flames standing in a barn full of hay, that the joke would really end up being on ME!  Ironically,  I would somehow be the one on fire and …

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