A Day In the Life of A Bipolar in Therapy

This is a direct entry from my journal.  Sometimes I have to look back to see how far I have come and to remind myself where I DON’T want to go…… September 16, 2006 I spent the day with MSA… Continue Reading

Is the Hot Mess REALLY a Mess?

“I’m a mess!” When I first began talking to CJ, I warned him. I told him that I was a mess, a walking disaster, and if it wasn’t for bad luck, I would have no luck at all. He didn’t… Continue Reading

How to be “cool” the Chicago Way ?….

OR, not.  More like “How to Be a Disgusting Excuse For A Human Being As Demonstrated By Chicago Teens.“ I just read this article on the Huffington Post ()  These teens found a 62-year old father of 12 hunting for… Continue Reading

Picking Up The Pieces

Hate the me that’s there every day The imperfect, insecure, unhappy girl that fucks up in every way Every step, every word misconstrued Trying to help everyone, giving herself,yet negatively viewed She broke down to nothing and began to put… Continue Reading

Yup. Defective ………..

I was born defective, only nobody knew it then.  It wouldn’t become evident until later, when I was in high school.  My mind, my heart, and soul were always in this very sad, dark place.  Nothing could cheer me up. … Continue Reading

Is THIS all there is????

If THIS is all there is to life, then I would like to see a copy of the contract or would like the receipt so I can get an exchange.  Am I going to be waking up at the crack… Continue Reading

The Awful, Ugly, Rotton Truth

I’m a bitch! When I have alcohol pulsing through my system, I turn into Cruella DeVille and tear apart everything in my path. I HATE IT!!!! I hate myself for it. I always say that I’m not going to drink… Continue Reading