Without You

A day without you is like sitting in the rain Drenched and heavy, feeling so cold each drop causing pain A day without you makes me so empty inside So hollow, so worthless,  its like a part of me has died When we are together, I feel like I’m whole and complete All the happiness that was missing came back in a sweep You make me laugh and I’m a better version of me When […]

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Alone

This poem, was pretty much one of the first poems I wrote. (Well, I may have written some on scraps of paper that I may or may not find in boxes somewhere, but this is the first one that is dated and written on the first page of my first book dedicated to my poem writing.)  I think I was 13 or 14. This is also probably one of the first actually written acknowledgements that […]

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This Dream

I have this dream And in it is you The time is tomorrow The memory is something new In this dream We were happy and content Planning our dreams Looking back at good times spent The ways I have hurt you Are just not there Because in this dream I was stronger, a better half of our pair. I fell in a hole and just kept on digging trying to get out but farther in […]

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Lost My Soul

My heart is bleeding into my soul Look what you did! YOU made that hole You never look at me, always look past I’m not invisible, yet I always come last I am alone everyday, even when you are near My soul aching so badly, it has one huge tear Do you even know me?  Does that matter to you? Do my feeling even count? Do you know what you do? My rumpled body, the […]

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So Stupid

I was so stupid, how didn’t I see You were only there to continue to break me Fooling me with your words, playing all the right games Gaining control of my heart, then tearing it up and calling me names Making me believe that you truly cared Holding me and comforting me when I was so scared It was never real, it was all just a scheme But I was too blinded by the charm […]

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Where I’ve Been…. You sure you want to know?

Having bipolar sucks.  Thats all I have to say.  No matter how much you try to pretend it isn’t there because you are taking your meds and doing all you can to maintain stability.  There is always something that creeps up and literally beats you over the head and rips out your insides to the point it makes you crazy. So, right now, here I am, completely ripped to shreds.  I thought I was rebuilding […]

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Why??

Your words sting right through my soul Sit deep in my heart burning a hole My mind is spinning I can barely breathe My chest tightening, I can’t leave Tears fill my eyes, my stomach in pain Why do you hurt me and drive me insane? Where did I fail, what didn’t I do? I thought I was doing alright for you. I stood by your side when no one else cared I gave you […]

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