Is one type of pain better than another?

Is physical pain better or worse than emotional pain? More like, is CHRONIC physical pain worse than emotional pain? The answer?  Neither is better or worse than the other.  Emotional pain, while it begins mentally, it can absolutely cause physical pain too.  Chronic pain? It starts in episodes, then it just kinda settles in, unpacks it’s bags and puts it’s feet up as you learn to deal with more and more pain.  Emotional pain, does… Continue Reading

Kick ’em when they are down, the only way to survive?

Last night, I experienced a major, MAJOR blow. While I was experiencing a very emotional time in my life and was already hurting and upset about events previously that night , I reached out to someone that “claimed” they cared about me.   I explained my situation, but the response I got, was so far beyond belief of what I could have ever expected to roll out of the mouth of someone who “cared” about… Continue Reading

The Bipolar Hot Mess 2013 NAMI Walks Team – Chicago style!

ATTN!!! NAMIWalks IS COMING! This year I have created a team for the Bipolar Hot Mess website to do the NAMI Walks in Chicago. If you are in Chicago and would like to join the team, it is Sept 21 at Grant Park. If you would like to support the Bipolar Hot Mess and her incredibly awesome team (already 1 member from the site!) and donate a TAX DEDUCTIBLE amount to our team that goes… Continue Reading

Weighing In – Recovered or Not

One question I have been thinking about when thinking of eating disorders is, IS THERE FULL RECOVERY?  What is considered full recovery?  I mean, obviously if you have bulimia and stop purging, then you have reached recovery in that respect, but what about anorexia?  If you are not restricting calories, not working out to extremes (or working out at all), not taking anything to intentionally make you lose weight, but  it still takes you hours… Continue Reading

Dreams of Ancient Times…….

We have all had those dreams haven’t we?   You know, the ones that have a cast of characters from your past.  Maybe a former love, or a long lost best friend, or the huge crush that wouldn’t give you the time of day.  Sometimes its reliving an exact experience from back in the day, other times its just the characters from the past and you embark on a new adventure in dreamland.  When you wake… Continue Reading

*Flashback* A year ago…..

It was a year ago yesterday. The first time I went into the hospital. And I don’t know why, but yesterday and today all I can do is cry. I know I am happy at how far I have come, but at the same time, I think about what I was like back then and it makes me so sad. I still remember it all like it was yesterday. And, right now, I don’t know… Continue Reading

I pledge…..

ANAD Pledge I will accept myself as I am. My uniqueness is a badge of honor, something to be proud of. There is no one in the world quite like me and I will strive to develop my special skills and abilities. I will accept others as they are. Each person is special and different. I will to try to learn from these differences rather than be critical of them. I will support diversity and… Continue Reading