A Day In the Life of A Bipolar in Therapy

This is a direct entry from my journal.  Sometimes I have to look back to see how far I have come and to remind myself where I DON’T want to go…… September 16, 2006 I spent the day with MSA from group.  I had a good time.  [My boyfriend’s] friend gave us his tickets to go see Wicked and we went.  This was the second night in a row I felt normal.  I mean, we… Continue Reading

Graduating From Therapy! *from the archives*

From the Hot Mess Archives! Yippie! I am FINALLY graduating on March 20! I am so glad and feel such a sense of accomplishment. However, I am still sad. My parents, bro and sis are going to be there, which is awesome, but there is one person that I want to be there, that isn’t. They have to work. Its disappointing because I want that person to share the excitement of how far I have… Continue Reading

I’m Good Enough, I’m Smart Enough, And Gosh Darn It, People Like Me……orrrrr not???

For a good majority of my life, I walked around feeling completely and utterly inferior.  Somewhere along the line, I decided that I had to be perfect in order for my mom to love me. SOMETHING I HAD CREATED MYSELF IN MY OWN MIND and I carried that weight around with me for years and years.  While carrying that around, and trying to be perfect academically, I was trying to fit in socially.  The first… Continue Reading

Is it a curse to be a good person???????

I mean seriously.  If  the odds of something bad happening are 1 in a million, I will be that 1 that it happens to. I try to stay out of trouble.  I try to mind my own business.  I try to do good things, like helping others through blogging or offering my help when someone mentions a problem.  I am there for my friends as much as I can be when they need someone, I… Continue Reading

I am

The perfect me will never be I am all I am I’m all that you see I talk to much and cry a lot I am happy but sometimes I’m not. I have bad days just like you I try to make them just a few I can’t help the cards life throws But I try to fix them as fast as I can you know. I have insecure moments, everyone does But you have… Continue Reading