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Every Night I Am Afraid….

Yes. I am afraid. Its bedtime and this is the time I always become afraid. I begin to panic and cry because I am afraid that he is going to forget me. That he is going to forget how much he loves me, forget what it feels like to love me, forget what it looks like to love me, forget …

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Its Only Been a Month, How is this happening so soon?!

Last month, I was admitted to the psychiatric hospital for a variety of reasons.  I was extremely suicidal, severely depressed, my medications were not working properly, and I just couldn’t get my bipolar disorder roller coaster under control.  Not a novice to the whole “hospital” thing (I had 2 visits previously at another location) I knew that I had to …

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Thinking

Musings from an old journal…. timewarp back to 2007….. Grrr…. always thinkin….. but, I guess its good to think and get it all out rather than keepin it all in and building up. I just can’t focus tonight and I can’t sleep because I know I have homework that needs to be finished. I read a page, then re-read the …

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