Who IS The Bipolar Hot Mess?
Well, I’m a 35-yr old girl with bipolar disorder who thought she had a handle on her life. Pssshhh. Yeah. That was laughable. Just when things seemed to be under control, the proverbial “shit hit the fan,” and the foundations and walls I had worked my ass off to build, crumbled to the ground while the windows shattered, and I fell down with it all. *sigh* I had put myself through college working toward the career of my dreams (graduated in 2003 with a BA and a BS), and while spending about 8 years working in that field (with a slight detour for a year of law school), I found love, got swept off my feet, got married, and then one day I woke up, pulling pieces of rubble out of my hair. That was January of 2012. Twenty months and one divorce later, I’m still attempting to piece it all back together. Yes folks, in a whirlwind of events, I lost it all, including one of the hardest things in my life to maintain, the stability I had finally established with my 2006 diagnosis of bipolar disorder. If my life pre-crash wasn’t crazed and dramatic enough, life post-crash has left me being the epitome of the phrase “hot mess.”
So here I am at ground zero, trying to stabilize my bipolar disorder while also working to get myself back on my feet as the strong, independent woman I was before disaster struck. I’m going to pull this Hot Mess back together and return as a new and improved, even stronger version of myself that will conquer everything thrown my way. I’m determined to climb back to the top, and it’s going to be an interesting ride, guaranteed! With my magnetic force in attracting drama and my sparkling personality, this ride is surely going to be quite entertaining.
Not only do I record my thoughts and dramas here, and on the Facebook page, but I am also the partner, and an author, of a website called Ask A Bipolar. I also used to blog monthly for International Bipolar Foundation. There is a lot of stigma attached to the bipolar illness and part of the reason I have created this blog is to show that even though I have bipolar disorder and lost everything during a crash, it is possible to, and I WILL, come out on top, AND SO CAN YOU! Having bipolar disorder should not, and WILL NOT, prevent YOU OR ME from living our dreams!!!!! It may pose a greater challenge and we may have to work a little bit harder, but it can be done and it WILL be done, by me, and most of all, BY YOU TOO!!!!!!!!
So, I’ll get to writing, you guys get to reading, and together lets conquer our goals one at a time and educate the world as much as we can about bipolar disorder and other mental illnesses!!!!!!
The Bipolar Hot Mess